The Pathetically Lovesick Wife!

"I've done this before" I thought to myself as he pulled me in his arms, held me tight and kissed my forehead. He let me go and he walked back into the small airport as I walked in the opposite direction to the car. It'll be just like the Korea deployment only I'll be able to join him a whole lot sooner. Piece of cake!


But as soon as I climbed into the driver's seat of the van and shut the door it hit like a ton of bricks. I took a deep breath, backed out of the parking space, and headed toward the exit. I wasn't prepared for this. I honestly had no idea the emotions would hit so hard. It's like a piece of my heart disappeared.

I pushed through the day, picked the kids up from moms, went to church and headed back home. As I walked in the door it felt so different. It didn't even feel like a home. It was so empty...............so lonely. It's amazing how just one person completes a home.

I try to keep my head up as I push through the days following my normal everyday schedule.....and some.......


But here I am two weeks later and still lonely as ever. I feel so fragile................so weak...........but then I look up and see the beautiful blessings he has given me.

Four amazing children!!!!

A part of him remains in the home.................

Or four parts of him for that matter..................

They bring so much joy to my life!

but I still yearn for his touch........

his scent..........his voice......

Oh what I wouldn't do to have him close right now.....